So Much Anxiety
Updated: Aug 22, 2021
My next event is around the corner and man can I say anxiety attack is on beast mode and I don’t even suffer from anxiety (that I know of). A few nights ago I woke up at two o’clock in the morning thinking about my “Rotten Soup” Wine & Cheese Intimate Q&A. The thoughts were not happy.
I was heavily inundated with what if this or that goes wrong. What if I forget to bring essential items needed for the event? What if I don’t have enough wine, cheese, or anything else? What if less than half of the people who RSVP show up? What if, what if, WHAT IF????? Like WTF I just want to get enough rest so I can function at work the next day.
Hell, as I’m writing this I have to stop and take deep breaths to prevent me from getting too anxious. I went through the same anxiety with the first event and it turned out amazing. So, is this anxiety a necessary evil? Is it here to keep me sharp? Is it here to make sure I dot every I and cross every T? Is it here to make me nervous and fuck up and be off my game for November 16th? Whatever the purpose November 16th will be just as amazing if not better than my first event.
My goal and desire for each event is to get better. So, if this anxiety is a necessary evil I welcome it. I look forward to seeing you all at the “Rotten Soup” Wine & Cheese Intimate Q&A. If you did not RSVP for this event I hope to see you at the December event. If you are a member of Zulmie’s God’s and Goddesses Facebook group, you have already been given the event link to RSVP early.
See you soon!
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